Step Back

the pain and suffering that I’m in

Well, let’s begin…
I’ll start by saying
I hate you
But I love you
I can’t stand you
But I still need you
I close my eyes and see you
I fucking hate it
Cause it’s not the real you
It is my version of you
The dream you
But it’s not you
It’s all the factors that I want to be true
Its everything
But it’s not you
Let me take a step
Let me see all of you
Wow
Is that you?

Leap Year

Yes, I think I can remember
It was in September
If I can recall
We weren’t talking
I tried to reach out
But I was afraid
Of what you might say
Would you know who it was
Would you have wanted it to be me
Would you have wanted to meet
Meet with me
We have a lot of making up to do
Let’s meet
This year
The Leap Year
29th February
Let us set a date
Let us write it in our diary
Let us make one last memory
Let us laugh until it is cautious
Let us express ourselves until we are motionless
Let us plan our lives out
Let go
Please
Please
Just don’t say no
It is a leap year
Who knows when we will see each other again
It is a leap year
Just think about it, my dear old friend

I am nothing

That’s what you think
I am nothing

I use to be worth something
But now I ain’t worth nothing

You know I use to be something
Someone big
Then it went downhill
Now I’m nothing

The whole world sees me as nothing
Isn’t that something

All a person wants it’s to be worth something
To feel something
But I feel nothing

&& That’s why
I am nothing

Don’t Hang Up

I’m not doing this cause I want to
I’m doing this cause I need to do it
They all have let me down
Plenty of times
Now I have to save myself
Yes, saving me
That’s all that matters
That’s what matters
You know I tried
Everything was in place
Then boom!
The bomb exploded

My life turned into pieces
But some pieces have gone missing
I was wondering if you saw it
Did you walk past it when you walked in
Do you think I can get another piece
A new piece
Would that fix the situation?

Who should I call
As I don’t have the answers
Maybe you would find a piece that was hidden
Or maybe there’s a reason why it’s hidden
Maybe its to show that people are broken
Those missing parts are not worth fixing
Maybe it’s a sign
That life is not worth living

I’m just telling you this cause you are still here
You have stuck around
You didn’t hang up
When you felt like giving up
You listened
Maybe you could stick around
Maybe you could help me
Lord knows I need fixing
Because today I feel broken

Life is hard

I tried so hard
Like so hard
I give and I give
But everything seems to fall apart
Everything seems to fail
Its time to set sail
I need to jump on a different mission
I just want to get off this one
I know what I’m owned
You tried to take that away from me
Now I want what is mine
What is mine, is mine
Not yours
I never said you could take it
I didn’t even ask for you to hold it
I feel stronger than I did yesterday
So I want everything back
I want my life back
Life isn’t fair
But it shouldn’t be this hard
But what I’ve gone through has made me better
I now feel good enough
Thankfully I believe in myself
Well starting now

To all the people with bruises
To all the people with scars
Life isn’t fair
Life is hard
But just remember
One can always stand up
& try to reach for the stars
Life isn’t fair
That’s why we got to work hard

That’s what I call forever love

I believe in you and me
I believe that we were meant to be
I believe in second chances
I love to love and all the romances
I believe we have a thing
This is not a drill
This is not a dream
I believe we will get past anything
& live our love story
As we have lived in it this long
Nothing will break us
We are still going strong
We are still moving on
As long as we keep fighting on
Even if one breaks
The other will have a shoulder to lean on
Thats our love song

how i was feeling

Why has this happened
Why do I feel sad
Sad like all the time
Why don’t people believe me
I’m not okay
I’m not fine
I’m not who you think I am
I’m not weak
I’ve just made a choice
So let me use my voice
Let me speak up for yourself
Let me say what’s on my mind
Let me be me
I can take it on
I think it’s time
You might be right
But this is not wrong
I don’t belong here anymore
You can celebrate
When I’m gone

victory is mine

nothing is going to stop me
I have always been a fighter
Do you think you could break me
try harder
I’m always ready for a fight
you need to start working on yourself
if you want to reach my level
you would not be able to grow
if you just stay neutral
think about that for second
take your time with it
I ain’t stressing
go and live your best life
and keep it moving
I am doing what I can
that’s why I will always stay growing

Good Times

feeling good
that’s one of the best feelings
but it has a hidden meaning
I need to stop fighting
and start living
thankfully I have a God who is so forgiven
he even stopped me from sinning
I don’t know about you
but I call that living
so cheers
cheers to us still dreaming
cheers to finding things worth believing
cheers to us
how lucky are we to have this feeling

God’s Child

you have never let me know
you have always been around
when I needed you the most
you decided to stay close
that’s why I love you so much
you always stayed in touched
so close and never far away
I care about you but like you cared for me
I love you
you showed me your love
by dying on the cross for me
I’m not sure if I ever truly thanked you
I will forever prove to you my love for you
what you did
it’s unmatched
no one has ever topped your love
it feels like heaven
something beautiful
with your love
all I can do is say
Thank you & I love you