its time to face it
its time to face the true
its time
its time see what’s there
its time for a slap
its time for a reality check
its time to see the real from the fake
its time
its time to give up
its time to quite
its time to stop
its time to turn left not right
its time move it
its time
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So what happened
Help Me
I want to believe
But I don’t understand what you are showing me
I want to believe
But it’s killing me
I want to believe
But is it for my own good
I want to believe
Give me your eyes so I can see
I want to believe
But it’s hard to let go
I want to believe
But my thoughts are doubting what I see
I want to believe
But I don’t think you can hear me
I want to believe
To believe in something good
To believe in something loving
To believe in something me
Help me
Help you
Set me free
From what my eyes are telling me to see
I want to believe
I want to see
Do you believe me
Voices
I try to stay alive
Because I want to see what I can be
I can be his glory
But he won’t let me
I can be free
I can let him see me
God, do you hear me?
I just want to be happy
Can you do that for me
I needed you
where did you go
do you know the time
it’s late
you forgot all about me
and now you are here
it’s clear to me on what you want
but its something that I cant give
you have had too much of me
now I’ve closed the door
I don’t need you no more
you left me when I needed you
now you are here
acting like you are here to rescue me
but I saved myself
I needed you
but you wanted to play games
so I left you alone
I’m sorry but you can’t stay
Hope
You will be happy
You will find peace
You will be okay
You are not done
You got this
You are strong
You will stay blessed
You never feel let down
You are beautiful
You got the gift
You work through this
You are never alone
You are not your past mistakes
You have what makes the world great
You are loved
You are sunshine
You are the hope that we have been looking for
The Last Note
I use to remember how to feel
Like really feel
Now I don’t remember what it’s like
I use to remember a lot of things
Like
How to smile
How to toughen up
How to fight back
Now I just sit here and wonder
Where did I go wrong
Why doesn’t life live for me
Why me
My breathing feels uneasy
Why is it so hard to see
Shall I tell you my story
You inform me it’s all in head
That I should relax and go to bed
But my bed isn’t the safest place
It’s where I lay my head and never wake up
Because if I wake up it means God didn’t do his job
I’m still here
It’s against the law
I don’t want to be here
I don’t want live anymore
So why is god fighting with me
He knows the score
If I die
He gets an angle and I won’t be here anymore
What if I take matters in my own hands
That’s what I’ll do
I’ll pretend to be happy whiles conducting a plan
No one will know
I hope everyone understands
I leave them a note.
Saying goodbye
They’ll understand
I had to go
That was the plan
Things will change for the better
Just you wait and see
They will all be better without
I’ll be better without me
Here is not where I want to be
I feel so empty
It was nice though
Living me.. my body…having a soul
Knowing that I’m going away
I can dream happily
This is the end of me
This is the reflection of me
My life
My history
Dying happily
But yet so peacefully
The Tell-All
Today is just one of those days I guess
I wake up
Brush my teeth
Then took my shower
I get dressed
Do my hair
All of this takes a least an hour
Then I look in the mirror
And practice smiling
Pretending that everything is okay
I have my breakfast
Then look at my messages
Watch the news to see what’s going on
Whilst looking outside hoping not for a thunderstorm
I put my shoes on
Then grab my bag
I open my front door
Still feeling a bit sad
I walk past my neighbour
And use my fake smile I practiced
I get to the train station
Listing to positive podcasts for motivation
I get on the train looking for a good spot to sit
I take a deep breath
Went to the station
As the train doors open I jump
I was ready to go to work
Today I wonder this is it
I make small talk with everyone
Holding my tears inside
I keep looking at the clock waiting
Waiting for it to hit 5pm
I breathe in
I sort myself out
Then get ready for home time
My workers want to go out for drinks
They invite me over
I think
One might be fine
Then I realise
I have to make small talk
That would be too kind
I don’t think they would want to hear my thoughts
Or even like the way I talk
So I decline
I pretend that I have to rush home for a delivery
That was the best excuse I could think of you see
I rush out and walk to the tube
I get on my 5.40pm train
And sit next to an old man
Opposite me, there’s a mother and a child
They playing together
When the child smiles
The mother smiles wider
Watching them I couldn’t be happier
I get off my stop and make my way home
It won’t be too long until I’m alone
I open my house door
I say hello but no response
I guess no one is in
I eat some food I found in the kitchen.
I take on my shoes
My feet start to hurt
Run up the stairs whiles taking off my shirt
I walk past the big mirror that I always look at in the mornings
I didn’t want to see me face
That’s how I was feeling.
I put my PJs on
And crawl into bed
I put myself to sleep
Hoping I wake up dead
I play some light music to keep me company
I turn off my phone
I don’t want no one to bother me
I close my eyes with a smile on my face
Hoping that tomorrow this will be my final resting place
The Norm
Light
You see light
But all I see is darkness
You see faith
All I see is hopeless
You want to be brave
But I feel weak
You want to hold
But I feel like letting go
You want to be number 1
I don’t mind being second
You want to change
I like who I am
You want to do better
I don’t need a reason to
If you cant change someone
Then don’t worry
Life will.
Mad
Yes
You can see it
I am mad
I’m mad at you
Yes
Believe it
Your words are the reason why there is no me or you
It’s crazy how your mind works
You don’t see what I see
that’s why you and I will never be